We're fine with our financial standing. We don't feel deprived in any way. We're even quite pleased with ourselves when we find a creative way to get the things that we want. Like the triple bunk bed we built in our kid's room, a raised garden bed from scrap sheet metal and wood, and the privacy fence we built from scrap that someone else was giving away.
|It has since received more paint|
I, myself, have a hard time believing that what I do is important. I'm not the woman who "does it all". Does that make me less of a woman? Less of a mom? An anti feminist? A bad role model for my daughter? When my husband comes home, I feel the need to give him the complete run down of everything I accomplished while he was gone. He doesn't need me to do that. He has told me this many times.
I wasn't so insecure about this stuff until we came back to Texas. All of a sudden I was looking around and seeing that everyone else had so much more than us. It wasn't that I wanted the things they had, but that I was feeling like perhaps we were behind in the game of life. Every now and again I have to remind myself of the wise words of Louis CK...
I do want a career of my own and I'm ready to start that process. But I don't want to feel like what I do now is meaningless or that the last 6 years have been a lazy waste.