it's been a while

Geeze, I haven't posted in about a week.

I also haven't run in about a week. I did sign up for a 5k next weekend though. It's local, it's a trail run, and it only cost $20.

I haven't been on the internet, period, all week. I've been really tired and lazy. I take that back. I wasn't too lazy to watch Glee on Tuesday night.

My mind has been loaded up with thoughts and decisions about where I need to be. There haven't been any opportunities within my husbands company to come back to Dallas. I finally came to the decision that I need to go back to Charlotte so my family can be whole again. Plus, being back home isn't as cool as I thought it would be. I tend to romanticize things in my head and this was no different. I haven't hung out with my friends very much. I still run by myself. I have enjoyed spending time with my mom, and the kids getting to spend time with her too. When we pulled up to her house today Braden waved from his car seat and started yelling "Ganny, I-I-I Lus you!!!"

So now the goal has changed. Instead of my main focus being to get "home", I just want our little family to be together, wherever that might be. There are a couple of opportunities that have crossed our path that would take us to new places. Now I just, kind of want to spin the arrow and see where we land. If we land back in Dallas, great. And if not, well that's fine too.

So at the end of this month my husband will buy a one ticket from Charlotte to Dallas and we will all make the pilgrimage back to the blue house on the hill together.